I appear to be this woman who has the golden touch. And it bothers me a bit.
So, if you happen to believe I am such a woman, below are plenty of reasons that will cause you to think otherwise.
- I don’t drive.
I failed the test back in France, with the examiner concluding that it would probably be better if I never try again, haha. For my American friends, keep in mind that the streets are narrower in Europe. And no, I’m not using that as an excuse… 😉 I think I gave him the impression we were in a Grand Theft Auto game or something. Needed some adrenaline that day. Hahaha.
- I’m an introvert.
While I’m friendly, I don’t trust in a snap. And it’s not about studying me and saying exactly what I want to hear. Deja vu and… You might be hiding what really matters to me. I want to see the real you. What are you afraid of? 🙂 I might involuntarily appear arrogant at times; you know, introverted humans often wear an invisible, robust shell around them. I must add that dancing has helped to give me some natural stamina.
- Although introverted, I believe I am a transparent (readable) human being.
This has clashed with mentors / investors who tried to toughen me up. While I get their perspective, it felt wrong to me back then. This felt wrong too. So yeah, I am apparently not the type of person you want to invest in – or I simply wasn’t ideal for what they envisioned me to be, or I wasn’t ready at that time, or the approach wasn’t adequate…the assumptions are endless.
- Verbal communication is a misery for me at the moment.
It doesn’t reflect neither my intellect nor my wide vocabulary. The more I try to fix it (hello, countless coaches!), the more I regress. So, I have decided to just follow the flow this year, for once, instead of putting a ton of pressure on myself (I can’t believe I’m saying this). I not only have a regular French accent, but a little bit of Southern French is also in the mix, haha. Yep, there are differences.
- I’m emotionally taken right now.
I sense a new ME is coming in 2019 who will so rock 2020. That’s the reason why you will notice (or probably already did) a change of pattern in my tweets and articles, except for the next six scheduled posts that will follow, which were written a little earlier. I’m considering taking a break mid-year. The odd thing with this phase I’m in, and as destabilizing as it feels, it doesn’t translate as the outcome being something negative. Well, not that odd because I can decide how I perceive the outcome to be. I’m always looking forward to things, but I am especially looking forward to see what life has in reserve for me this year and the next (okay, every year…).
– I am aware my eyes look very intense most of the time.
It’s like they’re going to drill your screen and reach you. It’s just a state of mind I put myself in. I don’t know how to make them look more like you guys, so any advice is appreciated.
– I observed all people’s weaknesses growing up (selfishness, disorganization, fear, irrationality, lethargic, shortsightedness, etc.).
As a result, I am rarely surprised by people, only disappointed in myself.
Somehow, I overcame what they couldn’t. And since I understand I can’t change them, the least I can do is to try to make them question or wonder. In brief, not all is pink in my world.
– I don’t have an interest in cooking – except if it’s a fun team activity.
There are numerous restaurants that prepared meals and chefs who can cook. I don’t see the point for me. I have tried several times, but the results didn’t justify the time spent.
– I am trying hard to broaden my horizon.
But I keep falling back to how I was built during my first years on Earth. My curiosity and perseverance will take me where I want to be eventually, be it in 5, 10 or 20 years. The point is, I’m struggling.
– I match best with people who like control and whom I judge are doing good for the world.
It’s interesting to be around them as they tend to enjoy explaining what they know about, especially since I am obsessed with growth myself – in almost any shape. Here, I’m crashing this ‘self-sufficient independent woman’ image that people might have built up.
– Being surrounded by kids freaks me out because they’re so innocent.
I am not sure how to unlock this disinclination yet. An exception is with very shy children, whom I often have an understanding of how to make them come out of their bubble. It’s probably about adaptation and time. But yeah, I freeze every time kids come to me with their innocent mind.
– I’ve always said I’d like to be an inspiration of sort.
But now I’m wondering who am I to even have the thought of it? I’m not ‘better’ than anyone. I have struggles like everyone else, and fears…even if on a broader spectrum.
– Winnie got it.
“I’m not lost for I know where I am. But however, where I am may be lost.”
Now hate me, like me less. I’m sorry.
Okay, I need some fun now. Find me exploring one of those Texan caverns or see you next month. Take care y’all.
PS: It’s important for me to leave all of my articles to show you how you can shape one’s mind through years, experiences, and knowledge. If you fall hard on the ground, you can always pick yourself up. And go a little higher, and a little higher more…
*altered version from the original because I didn’t feel comfortable sharing THAT much.
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